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January 15th, 2006

(no subject) @ 09:34 pm


Another day spent out of the house, mostly. Mass at noon, then to the grocery store, then off to Starbucks again for an afternoon with our heads in books. Having gotten halfway through Sunset Detectives by Herman Weiss yesterday and getting totally frustrated with the eternally jumping point of view, I went with a book on writing (the Gotham Writers' Workshop's Writing Fiction, as if I need to be reading any more books on writing). Perhaps I should bring one of my books of sudoku puzzles next time. I've tried bringing a notebook, which works fine when I'm sitting at a table, but Mary likes to sit in the comfy chairs, which make it a little hard to write, and I don't just want to sit somewhere else away from her. Perhaps a stiff back notebook? Hmm...hadn't thought of that...

Off to have the car serviced tomorrow. The Honda dealer is close to my doctor's office, so I'll stop there on the way back and pick up whatever new supplements she wants me to take. I know I'm taking Mary there on Wednesday, but I'm trying to be sure to take everything the doctor wants me to take. I trust this one.

I got to thinking about it today: Yes, I allowed myself to become twice the weight that a man my size should be, yes, I didn't exercise and ate badly, yes, I didn't really care much about it, but no, I'm not ashamed or embarrassed by it. It happened, it's over, it's time to move on and get myself back into some sort of shape. I know it's not going to happen overnight, so I'm still going to be a big, fat guy for some time to come, but, as the old Roman saying says, the journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. I've had a lot of false starts with losing weight in the last several years, where I'd lose some weight and then go right back to doing the wrong things, but you know, that's the past. I'm putting it behind me. I'm doing the right thing now. Yeah, it's going to cost a small fortune, but it's going to work. My fifties (which I will start in 69 days, unless I've done the math incorrectly) are going to be better than my forties.

I'm already feeling better than I have in a couple of years, I can reach parts of me that I wasn't able to reach less than a week ago (I'll spare you TMI), I've had several people comment that I appear to have lost weight (one went so far as to say that, if I got myself down under 200 lbs, she was going to "take a run at" me, which surprised the hell out of me--not that I'd ever in my wildest fantasies consider it), and for the first time in a long time I like myself. I like myself how I am, I like myself how I'm going to be, I believe that this will be a good time for me. I have a long road ahead of me, and I know I've said this before, but I believe that this time it'll work.

It almost has to.
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Date:January 15th, 2006 08:31 pm (UTC)
Liking yourself and believing in yourself makes all the difference in the world. You are right, what matters is that now you are making the healthy choices.

I did not know it was the Romans that first said a journey of a 1000 miles begins with a single step. I don't know why, but I thought it was Chanise.

*grins* It is good to see you getting better and better.
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Date:January 15th, 2006 09:47 pm (UTC)
Have you considered bringing a clipboard with you? I've seen fancy ones in WalMart that open up to store paper, though I'm sure a good ol' fashioned clipboard would be more than adequate...
And good going with the weight loss - as soon as we get ourselves back on our feet, my big butt is getting back into shape and signing up for water aerobics, either at the Y or the local gym. :)
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Date:January 16th, 2006 01:25 am (UTC)
The minute that I read you were going to see a naturopath, I just had this feeling that you would be headed down a more "do-able", healthy path. Once people start to treat the causes rather than the symptoms, it all gets better. Like summerlady said, you can and will do this.

...and we'll be here to cheer you on.

Chief Jack's Galley

There's a place for people who laugh at nothing...